ILU

Keep in mind its really Tuesday at like 150ish am. ILU is the new way of saying I Love You. I mean I really don't know where we stand anymore. Sunday I went to visit the sister-in-law and my niece. They moved into a condo near the shopping center. COOL. I feel bad for my niece...I know its hard for her to be there with just her and mom and no kids to play with. And her dad ain't shit. I can't even believe how he isn't providing for her. So one day this week I gotta get up there to take the child to the movies...we're gonna see Oliver Twist. Don't ask where the $$ is coming from because I haven't the foggiest. But it'll work out. Time's winding down now - there are only 5 nites left here and then its back to the West Coast I go. I'm supposed to see FMB on Thursday. I MAY get a chance to see him Wednesday, perhaps after I take the child to the movies. I can go down to his job to see him I suppose. Right now i'm eatin pretzels, yogurt nut mix with vanilla coke and E&J. Yum. Last night I played with myself then snuggled up under three pillows so I could feel like someone was with me. Did I cum? Yeah baby. I'ma try that shiggity again so that I can fall out shortly. Not getting enough sleep! Last night he dropped by to see me for ten minutes. He came way out his way to do that - did I tell yall this already? well so what I'ma tellit again. I got a hug and kiss and made sure I smeared my juicy pop lip gloss all over his lips. But of course it went unnoticed. That broad is D_U_M_B, i mean DAMN. So anyway, I didnt have much to say today...just wanted to check in. I'm really hoping to get a major-dickdown before I leave - but he be scaring me - like he has to work REALLLLLLY hard not to bust that nut. He's just so fuckin cute, it makes me sick. Oh...yesterday morning we were chatting and I called him cute and he called me beautiful and I asked him did he really think so and he said absolutely. Made my heart melt. He wants to know when I'm gonna strip for him, LOL. I said I feel too big for that - everything jiggles - and he said AND???? I'm afraid he'll stop being attracted to me and to that he says NEGATIVE. Hey it happened with her and it could happen with me. So, whateva. I'm babbling so fuck this, I'm out. I'll try to be more coherent tomorrow. Oh - I talked to Kikkoman and she keepe asking me when I'm coming home. T his weekend I say. This weekend. She doesn't understand that yet. I miss the girls. I'll miss it here but I'm just about ready to go home.